Yeah, why. I am jealous of my friend. she could contact the person she loves. I am wishing for that for what feels like forever. We do not have the same person. It's just that she can and I can't. I don't know what to do now already. It's killing me. I hate to imagine now, I just got hurt too much. and seriously I'm crying right now. The good thing is no one cares about my blog. So I'm just shouting this to no one. Coldplay has really been someone in my life. More than they should have. I know that this would pass. But why does it need to be this slow. I just want to see them or maybe talk to them for a while. But I don't think it's possible. I can't even ask the oracle even if there's a thousand questions in my head. It took me weeks to have the courage to download the live album. I am freaking out. I really want to see them badly. But I can't. Impossible. I don't even have a passport. Damn it. It's creeping me already. Everytime that person contact my friend, I keep on imagining what if it was them or any other person in my head telling the same sweet words. I know they would never see this but I would shout this to the world who doesn't care anyway.

I love you so much. It hurts to say this but I don't care if you do not care. All I want is to see you and meet you. That would make me happy for the rest of my life.